That rainy day

It started when it was raining heavily. I was supposed to have mandarin schedule that late afternoon. An umbrella with two people on it did not help much, i was so sorry that i do not have any umbrella with me which turned out to be disaster for my 친구. Because of she got wet all over the place, 미않에요, 내 친구. I knew that you were not feeling comfortable because of it.

The thing is not only that, i also know that i am lacking of that capability, there is no willingness inside of me to change how bad i am. When you mentioned it, i already have a feeling that sooner or later you will come to that point. I am trying so hard not to cry in front of everyone, especially in front of you. But my eyes would not let me do what i want. They just kept making tears, and it was just blown out all of sudden. I know that that was not an appropriate place to cry since we were studying mandarin. But i could not help my self not to cry. I do not know why her statements made me cried. I guess it was not only because of her thoughts of me but also the curren situation of me made me do so. Living in the same roof with some people you do not really know is a hard thing, especially for me. I am so under pressured because of what has happened to me in that house since i am so sensitive about everything. I do not know why i am so sensitive and i do not know how to solve this problems. I am a baby cry girl who cries at everything bad happens to me. Of course, it is not something that i am proud of.

I hope the sky will never let me down

Backstabber

I kept thinking to myself, do i have some kind of ability to hear what people talk bad things about me? Nowadays, it happens all the time. It's just like it keeps buzzing my ears. Should i consider it as a gift or a curse? Because it has both positive and negative side, of course. I think it is so common that one will be so afraid of hearing those thing. That goes the same thing to me. Not to mention i am so scared, angry, vicious but could do nothing except crying. In the age of 19, i hope i can be, not much but a little bit mature to handle those kinds of things. Of course, i will be so happy if everyone around, especially my dear friend, to support me whatever the path i am choosing.

There are times when i have deeply in thought of what real friends should do. But it is a sad truth that they are not my truly friends as they are supposed to be. It is very saddening thing to me since i do acknowledge them as ones of my closest friends in this very university.

My very new friend told me that i shouldn't be angry whatever they have done to me. But don't you think it's not quite easy to do so? Well of course i'm trying so har not to be so hateful to them, but the other part of me keep buzzing my ear to stay away from them. In the end, ib this very night, i will do what i'm capable of in dealing with them, my truly friends.

another intention

captured on photobooth at 00.34

recently, i join a particular club in jakarta. to my surprise, there is a handsome guy coming from PresUniv who has already join the club. at the first time, i am not in to the club, but when i was persuaded, i couldn't say no. but when i gave my thought on the matter, i feel like trying it won't get any disadvantages. when i join the club, i met the handsome guy i mentioned earlier, he is non other than our leader or manager or something like that. he is not only charming but also smart and of course very very much handsome teheeeeee >,<

in this club, i was taught how to invite or speak to people and the thing is, the one who gave me the lecture is HIM, the flowery boy woooooooyeah!!!.. there was a time, when he talked to me, i couldn't see his bright and shiny eyes, because he is waaaaaaay too handsome hohohhohohoho :0

when we met, we do always shake our hands that makes me klepek klepek. oh my goodness, i haven't felt this way since my infatuation towards iman hahaha

New family

New family of the year :-)

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happy eid mubarak 1423H

안녕 친구들...

the last two days were supposed to be the EID MUBARAK Days.. Therefore, I would like to apologize for all my mistakes that I've done to you guys.. but of course, it doesn't mean that we have to ask others to forgive us only at this kind of moment.. when we do something wrong, of course we need to apologize as soon as possible..

After all in this short post, I'd like to ask your kindness to forgive whatever my inappropriate actions are.. minal aidzin wal faidzin :)

old photo taken by noone

한국말

안영하세요. 나는 기나입니다. 나는 대학생입니다. 네대학교는 President University 입니다. 나는 한국말을 공부합니다. 한국말이 어렵지만, 너무 재미있습니다.

I have been learning korean language for 3 weeks. It turns out that my third language will be Korean and my fourth will be Mandarin since I will have Mandarin I, II, II as my subjects for the upcoming semesters. Although, Korean is not one of the official languages of the United Nations, I found it interesting to be learnt since I love watching korean TV and dramas. On top of that, it is my dream to work in Korea, South Korea. So maybe from today onwards, I will be using Korean a little to improve my language skill. Fighting!!

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Starting a new higher education (a year ago)

Every fall, confident high school seniors transform into nervous college freshmen. They leave their parents home for the hallowed halls of higher education. And like any new venture, starting college holds the promise of limitless opportunity to conquer the new territory. Or to try an be a little less lonely. But just because the opportunity presents itself doesn't mean everybody is ready to take it. XOXO Gossip Girl

9 end 2 outs

Life imitates baseball. You always get a second chance even when you’re losing. The 4th batter at the plate could drive in a home run at the bottom of the ninth inning to win the game or the opposing team could make a game-losing mistake and allow the player on third base to score. The game of baseball is full of surprises and comebacks. There are times when you need to step up to the plate and do whatever it takes to pinch-hit a single down the field. Or you have to take a bunt to send a fellow player home. Fly balls... Pitchers intentionally walking the hitter... These are a few of the baseball strategies that are used to sacrifice a play to win the game. The pitcher tries to outsmart the batter and the batter waits for the change-up pitch to smack the ball out of the stadium. In baseball, every player, coach, and benchwarmer has to be on his toes. Because there’s no way of knowing when a careless pitch, a wrong swing at bat, or a lousy catch will lose the game for the team. This TV series is for thirtysomething folks. It’s a story that they can relate to because most of them are living it right now. When you turn 30, your life starts imitating baseball as you find yourself with two outs at the bottom of the ninth. Of course, there are a few lucky ones who have hit a few singles down the line into left field in the 7th inning to maintain a comfortable lead. But that’s not always the case. It’s actually very rare. We go through lost opportunities and difficulties in life as the game slowly comes to an end. We get weary from the dating game, betrayed by ex-lovers, and upset over how society gives us the cold shoulder. Our health starts to deteriorate and the mental stress gets unbearable as we glumly watch the game of life reach the bottom of the ninth inning.

At the first-at-bat, you hesitate and get struck out. Then at the second-at-bat, you swing recklessly and get struck out a second time. Now you’re losing your breath and your energy levels start to drop precipitously. All the missed chances start to run through your mind over and over again like a slow-mo replay. You get nervous as you edge closer to the strike zone because the last time you did that, the pitcher hit you in the calf. Ouch! But you’ve got to do what a guy has to do. And that’s to never lose hope. In baseball, the game isn’t over even when you’re losing. In life, it’s not over until you die, which could be crueler in several ways. 2 outs at the bottom of the ninth... The next batter on your team trudges towards the plate. Let’s see whether the weary player will manage to hit the ball in the last inning. Because you never know... Someone might just hit a home run to save the game. Like they say, it’s not over until the fat lady sings...

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Independence

Growing up means one thing... Independence. We all want it. Sometimes we use other people to try to get it for ourselves. Sometimes we find it in each other. Sometimes our independence comes at the cost of something else and that cost can be high. Because more often then not, in order to gain our independence we have to fight. Never give up. Never surrender. XOXO gossip girl