Thursday, November 3

Definitely, maybe

President University Model United Nations - Workshop

I was an Event Organizer at that event

That rainy day

It started when it was raining heavily. I was supposed to have mandarin schedule that late afternoon. An umbrella with two people on it did not help much, i was so sorry that i do not have any umbrella with me which turned out to be disaster for my 친구. Because of she got wet all over the place, 미않에요, 내 친구. I knew that you were not feeling comfortable because of it.

The thing is not only that, i also know that i am lacking of that capability, there is no willingness inside of me to change how bad i am. When you mentioned it, i already have a feeling that sooner or later you will come to that point. I am trying so hard not to cry in front of everyone, especially in front of you. But my eyes would not let me do what i want. They just kept making tears, and it was just blown out all of sudden. I know that that was not an appropriate place to cry since we were studying mandarin. But i could not help my self not to cry. I do not know why her statements made me cried. I guess it was not only because of her thoughts of me but also the curren situation of me made me do so. Living in the same roof with some people you do not really know is a hard thing, especially for me. I am so under pressured because of what has happened to me in that house since i am so sensitive about everything. I do not know why i am so sensitive and i do not know how to solve this problems. I am a baby cry girl who cries at everything bad happens to me. Of course, it is not something that i am proud of.

I hope the sky will never let me down