everyday of your life is a page of your history

Happy sweet seventeen amelia pungky :D have a blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaast and thank you for the feasts :3

the new me

"I'm sure you have heard it said that appearance does not matter so much, and that it is what's on the inside that counts. This is, of course, utter nonsense, because if it were true then people who were good on the inside would never have to comb their hair or take a bath, and the whole world would smell even worse than it already does." Lemony Snicket, The Miserable Mill

"I like the night. Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." Twilight

A sea in the dark is amazed me with the glow of the light

is it fate or curse?

There are words I like the most.

"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over."

Those words are exactly the same as my longlovestory. I met him in my first grade of senior high school because we were classmates and then we became friends but suddenly it turned out to be loved. I've spent my highschool's life with thinking about harry, harry, and HARRY.

But now, in my bed, suddenly I'm thinking that meeting you wasn't a fate at all, it's a curse, because since the day I knew him he has hurt me a lot until this very night. I dunno why I love him very much, but wait, is it love we're talking about?

"what is love?" my friend asked me once.

I dunno what love is, but I know these, when you can't see him, you miss him. When you see him, you wanna talk to him. When you talk to him, you wanna be his side forever. Is that too much??

Do I have to sort out my feelings? I've been trying a million times but it didn't work out for me. What do you think I'm supposed to do?