Backstabber

I kept thinking to myself, do i have some kind of ability to hear what people talk bad things about me? Nowadays, it happens all the time. It's just like it keeps buzzing my ears. Should i consider it as a gift or a curse? Because it has both positive and negative side, of course. I think it is so common that one will be so afraid of hearing those thing. That goes the same thing to me. Not to mention i am so scared, angry, vicious but could do nothing except crying. In the age of 19, i hope i can be, not much but a little bit mature to handle those kinds of things. Of course, i will be so happy if everyone around, especially my dear friend, to support me whatever the path i am choosing.

There are times when i have deeply in thought of what real friends should do. But it is a sad truth that they are not my truly friends as they are supposed to be. It is very saddening thing to me since i do acknowledge them as ones of my closest friends in this very university.

My very new friend told me that i shouldn't be angry whatever they have done to me. But don't you think it's not quite easy to do so? Well of course i'm trying so har not to be so hateful to them, but the other part of me keep buzzing my ear to stay away from them. In the end, ib this very night, i will do what i'm capable of in dealing with them, my truly friends.